Flawed

Why do you want to try to be like someone else?  I found myself often in my youth trying to be like someone else.  I would try to dress, talk, and act like other people.  For one reason or another, I would want to be someone different from who I was.  I attribute a lot of this to the ignorance of my youth.  As young people, we are so impressionable, we are so influenced by those around us, by our peers, teachers, coaches, actors, professional athletes, etc.  We soak in so much of our surroundings.  As youth, we are trying to find our identity.  Trying to figure out where we belong, who we are, how the world works.  I get that.  But what about now?  What about today?  As adults, why so often, do we try to be someone we are not?  Why are we still trying to be like other people?  Why are we not comfortable being who we are?  Why are we not comfortable, confident, in our uniqueness, our beauty, our individuality, our strengths, our weaknesses?  Why do we try to hide ourselves?  Why do we try to ignore who we are, cover up who we are, pretend we are something or someone else?  I see adults constantly putting on a front.  They are hiding behind someone else.  They try to talk like someone else.  They try to act like someone else.  They are simply, not themselves.  To be frank, it’s weird.  It’s awkward.  And honestly, it’s sad.  Adults trying to be another adult.  Adults so insecure in themselves, they hide themselves behind another flawed adult.  We have to realize all of us are flawed.  We all have issues.  We all have problems.  I don’t care who you are, where you live, what your profession is, how much money is in your bank account, what type of degrees you have, so on and so forth, at the end of the day, all humans are one in the same.  We came from the dust, and we will return to the dust.  On a human level, no one is above anyone else.  So, why hide?  Why hide behind another flawed, messed up, imperfect human being?  Why hide who you are and what you have to offer the world?  Just like everyone else, you have gifts, talents, abilities, and a voice.  You count.  You are a part of the game of life, just as much as anyone else.  You matter.  You are important.  What you have to offer, is important, it is valuable.  We need you to be you.  We need you to be who God created you to be.  There is only one of you.  Just as there is only one of me.  If we hide behind someone else, we are wasting our lives, we are wasting our opportunities.  The world doesn’t need a copy of someone else, the world needs you, the world needs me.  Just as we are.  Flaws and all.

Better

I have to get better.  I absolutely have to get better.  I realize my insufficiency.  I realize my weakness.  I realize that I am but a mere created being.  Here today, gone tomorrow.  My life is a gift.  I do not have it all together.  I do not have it all figured out.  There is a drive within me to get better.  To be better.  To do everything I can each day, to be the best version of myself.  I so want to be an example.  I so want to be a strong leader.  Someone to follow.  I have to get better.  There are areas within my life that I can improve.  Areas that need to improve.  I cannot allow myself to let up, to settle, to allow complacency to take root.  Complacency destroys.  Complacency kills.  I cannot allow myself to get distracted.  I cannot allow myself to lose focus.  I cannot allow myself to give into worry, fear, doubt, or negativity.  I have to press into discipline.  Self-discipline.  I have to press into the pursuit of the uncomfortable.  I have to press into my Creator.  The little things.  I have to continue to do the little things.  Master the little things.  When I don’t feel like it.  I have to overcome my feelings, my emotions, my own negativity.  I have to overcome the negativity that surrounds me.  The negativity produced by the people who come in and out of my life.  I have to overcome the pull to get sucked in.  Sucked into gossip, backbiting, anger, instant gratification, and self-indulgence.  Every day is an opportunity to learn.  Every day is an opportunity to be the man or woman you want to be.  Every day is an opportunity to get better.  I want to get better.  I have to get better.  I embrace the toil of this process, the process of getting better.  I embrace today.