The Fight Against Self

I have to make a conscious effort every day to take my mind and body where it doesn’t want to go.  In order to learn, to grow, to mature, and expand, I have to force myself to do what I naturally, don’t want to do.  I have to force myself to fight against myself.  I have to push myself beyond myself.  It’s some crazy stuff when you really think about!  But, it is truth.  This is the reality for those of us who want to be excellent.  For those of us who want greatness, who abhor mediocrity.  Our natural mind and body lust for comfort, ease, and the path of least resistance.  If we allowed our natural mind to dictate our days, we would never reach full potential, our full potential.  We would find ourselves merely living lives of mediocrity.  Comfort.  Death.  The brain has to be controlled.  It has to be trained, re-wired, disciplined.  We have to choose consciously, every day, to master our brain.  To take our brain where we want it to go, NOT, allowing the brain to go where it wants to go.  The body always will follow the brain.  We must dictate our brain.  We have to drive our brain, in order to drive our body.  It is a battle.  A struggle.  A daily fight.  To constantly resist the natural, to constantly be in war with yourself, your own thoughts, feelings, and natural instincts.  This life of war against self can be exhausting.  It can be overwhelming at times.  But to attain excellence, to attain greatness, and to reach our full potential, the life of warring against self, is simply, the price for admission.  We have to realize satisfaction comes through the struggle, through the fight, through the discipline.  Satisfaction, self-satisfaction, is attained through the hard.  Doing the hard things.  Going through the process of re-training our brain and body, to pursue discomfort over comfort.


Don’t put off what can be done today.  We always think we have next time, the next day, the next week, so on, and so forth.  We like to put things off.  We like to avoid the reality of what is right in front of us.  What needs to be taken care of, or accomplished, NOW.  We procrastinate.  It’s easier.  It can become addicting.  It is an addiction.  Procrastination is an addiction.  It becomes who we are, what we do.  Procrastination is a trap.  It is the easy way out.  Or so we think.  Procrastination in actuality, isn’t an out.  Eventually, what we procrastinate on, will have to be done, will have to be accomplished, will have to be taken care of.  When we procrastinate, we push things down the line, to a later date.  And again, eventually, that later date comes.  We create a mountain of things we could have done, but didn’t.  We find, we don’t have enough time to climb the mountain.  We get stressed, frustrated, angry, irritable, and we look for others to blame.  The procrastination has become a giant mess.  A mess, too big to clean up all at once.  We fail.  We lose.  We fail to do what we said we would do.  We fail to be the example.  We fail others, our co-workers, spouses, friends, and ourselves.  Others lose trust in us, we lose credibility, we lose relationships and even jobs.  Procrastination will destroy your life.  It will erode your foundation, causing everything to fall apart.  We have to break-free from procrastination.  We have to break- free from the easy way, break- free from laziness.  We need to realize the destructiveness that procrastinating can and will bring into our lives.  Then, we need to have the discipline, fortitude, strength, and the heart, to do what we know needs to get done, TODAY!  We need to accept the power of delayed-gratification into our life.  We need to fight our natural desires and instincts.  The natural desire and instinct to take the easy route, to be lazy, to procrastinate.  We have to be focused, stay focused, on today.  Focused on doing what needs to get done, today.  Focused on being who we need to be, today.


I am so thankful for today.  I am so thankful for God’s patience with me.  I am so thankful for the breath to breathe, right now.  I am so thankful for the freedom we have within this great country, the United States of America.  I am so thankful for a teaching career.  So thankful for physical and mental health.  I am so thankful for the abilities to run, swim, exercise, read, write, learn, and apply.  I am so thankful for a house to live in.  I am so thankful for a vehicle to drive.  I am so thankful for healthy food to eat.  I am so thankful for Colorado Springs.  This adventure I have been on over the past year.  I am so thankful for the beautiful mountains I get to see each and every day.  I am so thankful for my Mom, who is my best friend.  I am so thankful for life’s opportunities to fail, learn, succeed, and grow.  I am so thankful.  There is so much to be thankful for.  Wherever you may be within life’s journey at this moment, be thankful.  Be open.


I don’t know what tomorrow holds.  I can’t change yesterday.  I can’t control how others will act.  What others may or may not say.  I can control myself though.  I can take care of my business, today.  Take care of what I need to do, today.  I can give today, my all.  I can take steps in the right direction, today.  I can live a positive life, today.  I can encourage others, today.  Serve others, today.  I can be disciplined, today.  Relentlessly focused, today.  I can be someone to follow, today.  Today, I can love.  Today, I can be a light.  Today, I can lead, set the example, and show others the way.  Today is here.  I WILL take advantage of today.  I WILL embrace today.  I WILL be thankful for today.

The Little Things

I am learning to do the little things.  I am learning that the little things in life, will eventually add up to become big things.  I am learning the importance and value in taking care of, performing, and doing, the little things.  More often than not, it is easy to ignore the little things in life.  It is often easy to not “do” or follow through with, the little things.  Why?  The little things are usually tedious.  They are usually difficult, and generally, those things that won’t get any recognition or applause from others.  The little things in life take time, focus, discipline, concentration, effort.  They require us to think.  They require us to give up what we want.  The little things are easily missed.  You have to look for them, be open to them, be willing to do them.  The little things are crucial.  They are a crucial component within this life.  They are the foundation.  You need a foundation.  I need a foundation.  We need the little things.  We need to do the little things.  Lay our foundation.  Build our foundation.  I have found the more I take care of the little things within my life, I am more joyful, more satisfied, more complete.  Living a life focused on the little things, is a life moving in the right direction.  A life that is becoming better.  More productive.  Doing the little things adds value for others.  Helps others out.  Builds others up.  When you do the little things, you are humbling yourself.  You lay aside your pride and ego.  By constantly doing the little things, you are refining your life.  You are choosing to put yourself in the fire.  You are ridding the impurities.  What a beautiful thing.  What a beautiful process.  The little things.  Doing the little things.  Be a person who takes care of the little things.  Be an individual dedicated to doing the little things.  Set aside your feelings, your emotions, your pride, and do what you KNOW, needs to get done.  The little things.  Everyday.  EVERY, SINGLE, DAY.  Be the leader.  Be the example.  Be someone to follow.  Be relentless.  Live life full.  Fall in love with the process.  Fall in love with the grind.  Embrace, and do, the little things.

A Few Thoughts

I want to do great things.  I want to give everything I have each and everyday.  I want to help others.  Serve others.  I don’t want any glory.  I don’t want any recognition.  I really just want that inner satisfaction and peace that comes from knowing I gave it my all, I am using what God has given me to use.  I want to be a leader.  An example.  Someone to follow.  I don’t want to be normal.  Live normal.  Encourage normal.  I am no one special.  Nothing special at all.  I am a flawed man.  But their are no excuses.  I have no excuses, will NOT make any excuses for myself.  I hate excuses.  I am learning the value of being patient.  It’s hard at times.  But I know it is worth it.  I am learning to run my own race.  To not worry about what everyone else is or isn’t doing.  But to just be me.  To just do me.  There is so very much to learn.  I want to learn.  I want to grow.  I want to explore.  I want to expand.  I want to become better.  I don’t want to waste my life.  Waste my opportunities.  I have to continue to force myself out of comfort, force myself to attack the fear that wants to hold me back.

This Past Year (Wal-Mart Included)

Be open.  Be willing.  Be open to change.  Be willing to change.  Be open to explore.  Be willing to learn.  Be open to struggle.  Be willing to grow.  A little over a year ago, God opened the door for me to move from Iowa to Colorado, Colorado Springs to be specific.  What an amazing year it was!  What an amazing adventure it has been!  There have been so many ups and downs out here since I moved, to say the least.  Any time there is a significant move in life, to a new town or city, there will be an adjustment period.  I definitely went through, and experienced that!  When I moved to the Springs, I transferred out here through Wal-Mart.  Thankfully, I had the opportunity to do so, Wal-Mart helped pay the bills!  But, Wal-Mart was most certainly, NOT, the job or career I wanted!  It had to do though.  And it did.  God taught me many invaluable life-lessons through my season at Wal-Mart.  Lessons I am so thankful I learned.  Lessons that will be with me until the day I die.  Lessons that have, and will continue to help me navigate through this crazy thing, called life!  As the first year in Colorado wore on, things began to change.  God took me from one season into another.  He began to open beautiful doors and opportunities for me that only He could.  I continued to learn, grow, and gain experience.  So awesome!  So thankful!  God truly is, GOOD!  None of this would have happened though, if I were not willing.  If I was stuck.  Closed-off.  So often, I see people going through the motions within their life.  They have no vision, no passion, no direction, no fire.  They are just living to live.  There is no learning.  No applying.  No changing.  No growing.  Who’s fault is this?  Their fault!  The individual’s fault!  If you want to experience a full life, if you want to experience the fullness of what God has for you, YOU, have to be open.  YOU, have to be willing.  Ultimately, you have to step out by faith.  Step out into the unknown, into the dark, into the places and areas you may not necessarily want to go!