My Road

Up ahead the road turns.  Where does it turn to?  That, I do not know.  All I know is that I have to continue down this road.  This is the road I have chosen to take.  This is the less-traveled road.  The road that most choose not to take.  The exact reason I chose this specific road.  I don’t want to travel down the road taken by most.  I don’t want a road that is well lit, well marked, well worn.  I want a road that is dark.  A road unmarked, hardly traveled, full of potholes and speed bumps.  I want a road that is unknown.  Unfamiliar.  Off the main drag.  Wherever this road turns up ahead, it doesn’t matter to me.  It is not about the end destination.  For me, this road I am traveling down is about the process of learning along the way.  When I don’t know exactly where I am going, when I don’t know exactly how I am going to get where I think I want to go, this challenges me.  This tests me.  This stretches me.  This forces me to learn.  This forces me to adjust.  This forces me to rethink.  This forces me to examine, ponder, question.  This forces me to grow, mature, and let go of myself.  I am thankful for this road.  This road that I have chosen.  No, this road isn’t for everyone.  No, this road isn’t the easy way.  And no, this road isn’t always enjoyable, but this road gives me peace, satisfaction, and at the end of each day, when it’s time to rest, traveling down this road is exactly the road I know I am suppose to be on.  The road less-traveled.  The difficult road.  The uncomfortable road.  The road unlike any other.

Hold Back

My fears want to hold me back.  My anxiety wants to hold me back.  My mind wants to hold me back.  I want to give in.  I want to let up.  I want to be normal.  But I can’t.  And I won’t.  I have to keep going.  I have to press on.  I have to live each day fully.  I have to be a good steward of what has been given to me.  I have to be an example, one to follow.  A leader.  A role model.  I have to test myself.  Challenge myself.  Allow myself to experience uncomfortable.  I have to overcome.  Overcome the fears, the anxiety, the wandering mind.  I have to overcome the pull to be satisfied, content, and complacent.  I have to encourage and teach others.  I have to practice what I preach.

It’s not about me

It’s not about me.  Not even a little bit.  I wasn’t put on this earth to serve myself.  I wasn’t put on this earth to create a better life for me.  Yes, I firmly believe it is crucial we take care of ourselves, our mind, our body, and our spirit.  This will only allow us to serve others in a greater capacity.  But at the end of the day, your life isn’t about you.  This life isn’t about you.  This world doesn’t revolve around you, sorry.  Honestly, there are very few people who actually care one iota about you.  There are very few people in this world who know your name, who know your interests, who know ANYTHING about you.  In the grand scheme of things, you are nothing.  So why do you think you are something?  Why are you so caught up in yourself?  Why are you so arrogant?  Selfish?  Self-centered?  Your life is but a vapor, here today, gone tomorrow.  That is truth.  This is reality.  This life is NOT about you.  This life is about others.  Your life should be about others.  We were made for community.  We were created for others.  To serve others.  To help others.  To protect others.  To love others.  As human beings, we need each other.  We need interaction, communication, fellowship with one another.  Get over yourself.  Get rid of yourself.  Let go of your arrogance.  Let go of your pride.  Let go of your ignorance.  Humble yourself.  Open up yours eyes, open up your ears, open up your heart, that you may learn, grow, mature, share, teach, and serve others.  Step into your purpose.  Step into your destiny.  Become the individual you were created to become.