The more you give up, the more you put on the line, the more you pursue the uncomfortable, the more you sacrifice, the more passion you will find within your life. Passion comes through sacrifice. Passion come through pain, suffering, difficulty, and hardship. The fire burns strongest, when an abundance of fuel exists. The fire burns brightest, when the darkness closes in. If you want passion, if you want the fire within to burn intensely, then you must be willing to live a life of sacrifice.
You never know. You never know how you may impact someone’s life. You never know how your words may uplift a hurting soul. You never know how your example may challenge someone else to be more. You never know how the life you live, may change the course of someone else’s life. We are surrounded by people. People see, people hear, people observe. People follow. The way in which we choose to live our life, matters. It’s not just about us. It’s not about us doing whatever we want with the life we have been given. We have a responsibility. A responsibility to those around us. A responsibility to live a life that reaches out and touches the life of another. A responsibility to be the best version of our self, that we might encourage others to do the same. Life is too short. Too short to be caught up in yourself. Too short to live selfishly. Too short live negatively. Life is a gift. Life is an opportunity. A gift that has been given to give. An opportunity to help, teach, encourage, challenge, and love others. Your life matters. My life matters. Our lives, matter. There is a reason for our existence. There is a purpose for our being. There is a life before us to live. We must live this life fully. We need to look up. Look out. Look around. We are surrounded by beauty. We are surrounded by beautiful faces. We are surrounded by opportunities. You never know…….
It’s ok if they don’t understand. It’s understandable. Understandable that they don’t get it. They don’t grasp it. They can’t wrap their mind around it. You are walking down a different path. You are walking down the less-traveled path. The difficult path. You have been created and called to live a different life. You have chosen to live this life. Each day, you continue to choose this life. This is who you are. This is who you want to be. You can walk away from this life at any time. You can quit. You can choose to live another life, someone else’s life. You can choose another path. But you know deep within your soul, you can’t, you won’t, and you honestly don’t want to. This less-traveled path you are walking down, the difficult path you have chosen to take, it drives you. It burns within you. It separates you. It gives you meaning. Purpose. Focus. Although at times this life is lonely, and at times exhausting, it is worth it. It will be worth it. Eventually, people will see. People will be encouraged. People will follow. Eventually, your time will come to an end. You will pass the baton to another. The example you have set, will continue. Today, you continue on. Quietly, humbly, aggressively. Your light is shining brightly.
The axe is clean. The axe has been sharpened. It is ready for use. I take my axe, and set out to find the largest tree. No one is around. The sky is clear, pure blue. The sun shines brightly, the heat is intense. I stand shirtless, axe in hand, focused on the task before me. It is time. I begin to chop. One chop at a time. This will be a very long process. Once chop at a time. One chop at a time. I get into a rhythm. One chop at a time. One chop at a time. Eventually, my axe will prevail. I will prevail. Patience, endurance, and strength are of utmost. Keep chopping. Keep chopping. The tree will fall. Keep chopping.
A little over two years ago, I was discharged from the Navy. At that time, I came out of boot camp fat, and out of shape. I very rarely find myself in this type of physical state. I hate it. It’s not me, who I am, or who I want to be. Before I shipped off to boot camp, I had competed in my first bodybuilding show and had been training like a mad man. After my discharge, I found myself in Urbandale, IA, living with my sister to help care for her ailing Father. Once I got my bearings back, it was time to get back on track physically. Enter rebuild #1. I had to rebuild myself from the bottom. Within a short time-frame, I lost close to 30 lbs. and regained my desired physical state. Fast-forward to the present. I moved to Colorado Springs in the summer of 2017, and have mostly been focusing on endurance type training. I find myself now, in another rebuild. Rebuild #2. The endurance training has led me down a path of overtraining, undereating, and with over-use injuries. I have neglected strength training and am once again, physically speaking, in a place I do not want to be in. I am not healthy. I cannot continue in this direction. I am shifting. I have already made the shift. I am going back to my first love, the weights. I am rebuilding my physique. Rebuilding my training, nutrition, and mindset. It’s not about being hardcore. It’s not about being crazy. It’s not about ego or pride. It’s not about “look at me.” It’s about health, vitality, longevity, and above all else, being a healthy example to the next generation. A healthy leader. Someone to follow. I want to be the best I can be. I want to be the best example, leader, and man that I can be. I want to lead by action, not by word. I want to be a physical example. Looking the part. Living the part. I want to continue to learn, grow, and teach. Rebuild #2 has begun. I have to change, if I want to see others change. I have to be open, and willing myself, first, and always. This rebuild is about endurance. The long-game. Taking one step in the right direction, one day at a time. I am committed. Committed to this marathon. Committed to the micro, rather than the macro. Committed to training, eating, and living differently. I am excited. I am expectant. Rebuild #2 will be the beginning of, is the beginning of, something new, fresh, and BIG. Rebuild #2 is a re-birth. A re-alignment. An absolutely necessary life adjustment. I am coming back. Back to the basics. Back to simplicity. Back to what I know, who I am, and who I want to become. I am coming back to the first love. I am all in. It is time. It is mine for the taking. I WILL TAKE IT.
There are a lot of fake people in this world. Fake in what they say, fake in what they do, and fake in how they portray themselves. It’s pathetic. People are trying to be something or someone in order to gain some kind of recognition. In order to gain some sort of financial backing. In order to gain some passing glory. People mask themselves behind whatever they think may provide the gain that they are looking for. People will do whatever it takes in order to elevate themselves above everyone else, even if it means they have to become fake to do so. The gain in this life is all temporal. Remember that. Whatever gain you accrue in this life, eventually, it will all be left behind. Our time on this earth is but for a short period. Are you really going to spend your time being fake, in order to gain that which is temporary? Are you really going to waste your energy, efforts, and gifts on being fake? People need to wake up. People need to realize they can get away with being fake for a time, but in the end, when you live a lie, the truth emerges. Quit being fake. Quit trying to put on a front. Quit wasting time. Quit wasting your life. Quit following the crowd. Get over yourself. Step out from behind the mask. Step out from the shadows. Step into the light. Be the individual you know you should be. Be the man. Be the woman. Be the person that is about others, and not yourself. Be real. Be genuine. Be strong. Be bold. Live your life, not someone else’s.
This is what is inside of me right now. Deep within. Deep within my soul, my spirit, my inner man. It’s brewing. It’s burning. It’s been brewing. It’s been burning. I can’t ignore it. I don’t want to ignore it. I know it is who I am. I know it is what I am. I know this is how I am to live my life. I know this is the path I am to take. I have to wait patiently. I have to wait for the right time. I have to allow life to unfold. The burning inside of me is to live as lowly, simply, and minimally as possible. To physically train as a man possessed. And finally, to help in whatever capacity possible, hurting, Fatherless youth. This is it. This is what is inside of me. The fire burning so intensely.