They Don’t Understand

It’s ok if they don’t understand.  It’s understandable.  Understandable that they don’t get it.  They don’t grasp it.  They can’t wrap their mind around it.  You are walking down a different path.  You are walking down the less-traveled path.  The difficult path.  You have been created and called to live a different life.  You have chosen to live this life.  Each day, you continue to choose this life.  This is who you are.  This is who you want to be.  You can walk away from this life at any time.  You can quit.  You can choose to live another life, someone else’s life.  You can choose another path.  But you know deep within your soul, you can’t, you won’t, and you honestly don’t want to.  This less-traveled path you are walking down, the difficult path you have chosen to take, it drives you.  It burns within you.  It separates you.  It gives you meaning.  Purpose.  Focus.  Although at times this life is lonely, and at times exhausting, it is worth it.  It will be worth it.  Eventually, people will see.  People will be encouraged.  People will follow.  Eventually, your time will come to an end.  You will pass the baton to another.  The example you have set, will continue.   Today, you continue on.  Quietly, humbly, aggressively.  Your light is shining brightly.  

Chop The Tree

The axe is clean.  The axe has been sharpened.  It is ready for use.  I take my axe, and set out to find the largest tree.  No one is around.  The sky is clear, pure blue.  The sun shines brightly, the heat is intense.  I stand shirtless, axe in hand, focused on the task before me.  It is time.  I begin to chop.  One chop at a time.  This will be a very long process.  Once chop at a time.  One chop at a time.  I get into a rhythm.  One chop at a time.  One chop at a time.  Eventually, my axe will prevail.  I will prevail.  Patience, endurance, and strength are of utmost.  Keep chopping.  Keep chopping.  The tree will fall.  Keep chopping.

Rebuild #2

A little over two years ago, I was discharged from the Navy.  At that time, I came out of boot camp fat, and out of shape.  I very rarely find myself in this type of physical state.  I hate it.  It’s not me, who I am, or who I want to be.  Before I shipped off to boot camp, I had competed in my first bodybuilding show and had been training like a mad man.  After my discharge, I found myself in Urbandale, IA, living with my sister to help care for her ailing Father.  Once I got my bearings back, it was time to  get back on track physically.  Enter rebuild #1.  I had to rebuild myself from the bottom.  Within a short time-frame, I lost close to 30 lbs. and regained my desired physical state.  Fast-forward to the present.  I moved to Colorado Springs in the summer of 2017, and have mostly been focusing on endurance type training.  I find myself now, in another rebuild.  Rebuild #2.  The endurance training has led me down a path of overtraining, undereating, and with over-use injuries.  I have neglected strength training and am once again, physically speaking, in a place I do not want to be in.  I am not healthy.  I cannot continue in this direction.  I am shifting.  I have already made the shift.  I am going back to my first love, the weights.  I am rebuilding my physique.  Rebuilding my training, nutrition, and mindset.  It’s not about being hardcore.  It’s not about being crazy.  It’s not about ego or pride.  It’s not about “look at me.”  It’s about health, vitality, longevity, and above all else, being a healthy example to the next generation.  A healthy leader.  Someone to follow.  I want to be the best I can be.  I want to be the best example, leader, and man that I can be.  I want to lead by action, not by word.  I want to be a physical example.  Looking the part.  Living the part.  I want to continue to learn, grow, and teach.  Rebuild #2 has begun.  I have to change, if I want to see others change.  I have to be open, and willing myself, first, and always.  This rebuild is about endurance.  The long-game.  Taking one step in the right direction, one day at a time.  I am committed.  Committed to this marathon.  Committed to the micro, rather than the macro.  Committed to training, eating, and living differently.  I am excited.  I am expectant.  Rebuild #2 will be the beginning of, is the beginning of, something new, fresh, and BIG.  Rebuild #2 is a re-birth.  A re-alignment.  An absolutely necessary life adjustment.  I am coming back.  Back to the basics.  Back to simplicity.  Back to what I know, who I am, and who I want to become.  I am coming back to the first love.  I am all in.  It is time.  It is mine for the taking.  I WILL TAKE IT.

Detach

Remove yourself from your feelings and emotions.  Step outside of yourself in order to think, see, and hear clearly.  Too often, we are lost in ourselves.  Lost in our feelings, emotions, anxieties, fears, and sorrows.  Too often, we can’t get past the inner self, in order to accomplish the tasks to reach our full potential.  We need to detach.  We need to learn to detach.  We need to learn to let go.  We need to understand that mistakes, mishaps, and failure are all a part of the life process.  Never to be avoided, but mistakes, mishaps, and failure should be expected, accepted, and learned from.  You are not perfect.  You will never be perfect in this life.  Perfection and the pursuit of, is myth.  Unattainable.  Do not strive for perfection.  Rather, strive for growth.  Strive for maturity.  Strive to become a better you, TODAY!

Inside

This is what is inside of me right now.  Deep within.  Deep within my soul, my spirit, my inner man.  It’s brewing.  It’s burning.  It’s been brewing.  It’s been burning.  I can’t ignore it.  I don’t want to ignore it.  I know it is who I am.  I know it is what I am.  I know this is how I am to live my life.  I know this is the path I am to take.  I have to wait patiently.  I have to wait for the right time.  I have to allow life to unfold.  The burning inside of me is to live as lowly, simply, and minimally as possible.  To physically train as a man possessed.  And finally, to help in whatever capacity possible, hurting, Fatherless youth.  This is it.  This is what is inside of me.  The fire burning so intensely.

Change

One of the most difficult endeavors in life is change.  Naturally, none of us likes change.  Our mind wants to live life on auto-pilot.  Our mind will fight to keep us on cruise-control.  Doing the same things, the same way, over and over again, day in and day out.  Our mind will fight for routine, ritual, and the known.  But, if you always do what you have always done, you will always get what you have always got.  We have to change.  We must change.  We must learn the necessity for change within our lives.  Although most of us hate change, and we have a mind that will fight to keep us from change, we must fight to allow change to unfold in our lives.  If we neglect change, we neglect growth.  If we neglect growth, we are choosing to live a life of waste.  A life of wasted opportunity, potential, and reward.  Change is a catalyst for growth.  We need to grow.  We need to learn, apply, and grow.  We must continue onward, forward, upward.  We have been given so much.  We must fulfill our destiny.  We must be good stewards of that which has been entrusted to us.  Do not fear change.  Do not allow change to distract you, frustrate you, or fluster you.  Allow change to challenge you, motivate you, and transform you.  Change WILL occur in life.  Accept it.  Be open to it.  Embrace it.

You Don’t Know

You don’t know, if you don’t try.  You will never know, if you never attempt.  Allow yourself to try.  Allow yourself to attempt.  Allow yourself to fail.  Allow yourself to succeed.  Allow yourself to learn.  Allow yourself to grow, mature, and become better.  Allow yourself to be vulnerable.  Real.  Raw.  Authentic.  What burns inside of you?  What excites you?  What consumes your thoughts?  I challenge you, I encourage you, to run toward your fire.  To run toward your passion.  You and I, we literally have nothing to lose, even if we have everything to lose.  Life is all temporary.  We  get one shot.  One opportunity.  That’s it.  Why not live this opportunity fully?  Fearlessly?  Boldly?  Aggressively?  Live the life that is burning inside of you!